so smile so

passed away slipped away about passed away it was shortly after my other granduncle slipped away it was heard on the phone from my granny's mouth it was every single words describing how my grandaunt has passed away in an operation with eighty per cent of her liver eaten away by the liver failure every word of it has given me a heart full of regret and sore I do I do understand this is life it's just that I won't admit to it that I am never going to see all the people I love ever again remembering how we used to eat and laugh together whenever I was sad, how they amuse themselves to put up a smile on my face i miss you but you have gone again and your long journey made me sad

am I allow to say that I just love London so much? the way the city is , the people live in the city, the art here, all the excitement of new and all the mystery of the old. this lovely snow has forced thousands of people stayed home and consequently what we did was , the whole nation is gone to the park for a snow day ! All the pictures of snowman and the scenes of snow fight and sledges are just adorable,say you are walk down the road with your hands holding a snowball, everyone passes you grins at you and give you a sort of very subtle smell that you could easily keep for days.

me and ye walked all the way to wimbledon park, where the whole place is just a white heaven while the snow was falling madly. I put on my thickest clothes, shoes and hats, well, still not helping a lot, cos of the extreme excitement that morning,rushing in and out, forgot to put on a sweater or even a warm sticky pad. However, doesnt matter, I was totally grateful for the gift of god, as I say, the precious luck the god brought to all of us in the new year. that is truly the best present I've ever had. I havent been as tired as then for years,I havent seen anything as half beautiful as the scenarios of everything in white and floppy snow, apart from in dreams. I remember walking up to wimbledon common where big houses are set alongside of the little roads planted with aged and exquisite trees, it was just fantastic, as fantastic as dreaming about your love. I still cant believe in my eyes, of what I saw what I felt on my cheeks, they are too beautiful to ever exist.

I love everything the snow brings to me, and I finally came to realise that it doesnt matter what I dont have , it matters what I have, and should always play by ears, probably shift ways with the wind but never fall apart, just like the snow, always natural.

I've never felt this way before, everything that I do , reminds me of you everything is so white and clean outside the house , outside the room. why cant I just get a sight of you? why am I even scared to tell you that I ever see you in my dreams? I have never seen anything as half beautiful as the snow in london in my life, just like I have never seen eyes as clear and blue as yours. should I give up? or should I leave it there? give me a clue. even if just a smile or a subtle wind of your smell.

I want to walk in snow to college tomorrow, and picture you standing there with me.

well, I want to say that

some people fake so well that they are good friends with you ,oh holly dear, you are so nice and pretty

we should really start to hang out more, like to a pub or doing anything else together

and they never appeal to be interested in you anymore in the rest of your fucking life

basically What I Say Is, to never fucking screw up again, I would

firstly, let go off you fucking people, which means, if you dont give a shit

I would definitely not bekind and friends with you

not a single glance

secondly, to some boys who I liked and I thank godly didnt work out in the end

thank you , thank you very much(that was totally said in an British accent)

thirdly, we are going to find nice and sensitive boyfriends to go out with, with amazing manners and humor

which possibly would take up a lot of time and space

but definitely up to it

I would mostly remind myself that especially one person that , need to go ! f off.

噢, 亲爱的,可爱的, 那些人一口一口的叫着你的名字

说什么, 我们真的应该多一起出去玩玩, 去pub或者一起做点什么

说, 你真的好可爱, 我真的就是很喜欢你.

结果屁都不冒的就不甩你了, 好像你根本没有在他们生活中存在过

fuck off,,fff

我会lead a brilliant life and you are not going to be in it!

I totally indulged, in the sweetest city , in the sweetest time of the year.

words are never good enough to express this feeling,

it's like drowning in the honey, actually , even nicer than that

not too sweet, not too tanky, but very beautiful , delightful and also full of warmth,

from people you've known well, people you havent known well and people you dont know at all,

they give you the best smiles which cheer you up while getting off and on the train or either

save you from hell in an instant moment by singing the christmas song for you cordially.

I love how the christmas lights and flavor from shops set you free. While walking along the streets,

I found myself totally , again, in love with London so faithfully and indeed.

and I guess I'm so grateful, thank you for the christmas, the love you give me.

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